[my journal]

JOURNAL NAME CHANGE.

Sun, 29 Feb 2004 07:48:26 GMT

I HAVE A NEW LJ NAME!
The name is SymbioticWolf. Please update your friends list accordingly.
Bye bye, old journal! ^_^

Lonely

Sun, 22 Feb 2004 23:23:59 GMT

*sigh* I'd like a girlfriend.
::prepares for everyone to laugh at him::

Thu, 19 Feb 2004 04:42:02 GMT

If you don't want to hear me rant, I wouldn't really read this.

I'm sad beyond all possible measurement. I just hate my life. I wish I could go live somewhere near Orry and Chris and all them, because they feel like family more than my own.
My role models disappear day after day, and I start to lose my sense of pride and dignity, along with my sanity. It's like my life is over before it's really even begun. Everyone is hurting me...

All of these people I am about to mention and more have affected my life more than words.
Katie, Chris, Orry, Evie, Christina, Matt, Will, Alex, Kyle, Kelsey, Francis, Naty, Nathan, Pat, Greg, Jarred, Calso, and many more - I love you all, and wish you the best of happiness.

A friend of mine brought up a statement a few days ago that almost brought me to tears:
"Back when we were in elementary school, we had the perfect life. Our parents were both calm and sane, We had no evils and no worries, we could do everything. We were invincible. Look at the hell we live in now. I really don't know what happened along the line, but now look what we have to resort for happiness (We were drinking that night.)"

I don't even know what to say anymore.

EDIT: First of all, http://www.datacraft.co.jp/takagism/index_e.html . I can beat it in a minute and a half. Second of all, supportage, I suggest you do the same. I'm not gay, but I think that if you love someone, then you should marry them, no matter what people or the Bible tell you. I hope that if you feel the same way you click on the link, copy the HTML and put it in your journal. Adios!


Marriage is love.

Mon, 16 Feb 2004 22:25:13 GMT

Whoa, today sucks.
Today reeeeeeeeeeeeally sucks.
It's just an aftermath of a long weekend. >.<

P.S: Cheap vodka can kick ass. Random, ain't I?
I'm going to go do something productive.

Story of the day!

Tue, 10 Feb 2004 20:03:49 GMT

So, my mom gets a call from a flower shop saying that someone ordered flowers from our house, and the person was barely understandable.
She ends up hanging up and calling back, only to be stopped by a man saying something like this:
"What are you doing, you bitch? Do you know that you're taking the food out of 3 starving children's mouths? Don't ever call here again, you fucking bitch!"

And now we're calling the number like destined telemarketers just to PISS THEM THE HELL OFF EVEN MORE.

And we got the police in it too... Ahh, I love making stupid people suffer!

EDIT: New details have come to light! IM me (FayesBounty) if you want to know more - this is important, but I don't want to post it here.

Sun, 08 Feb 2004 00:42:27 GMT

Hmm, yay. Looks like I'll crawl back into my little corner of the world because life fucking sucks.

P.S: If I find out who hacked me, which topped my bad day all off, you will be sorry. Mark my words.

Holy crap.

Thu, 05 Feb 2004 11:55:14 GMT

None of you probably care but.... Metroid: Zero Mission is the most fantastic game ever. Go buy it when it comes out on Feb.9th if you are any kind of Metroid fan. This game had barely any flaws, it was a true sign of perfection.

Oh... and there is a MAJOR plot twist at the end! ^_^

I have beaten the game and know everything about it so if you want to know, just IM me and I'll tell you. Adios.

My 1st MZM Completion time: 4hrs, 14min, 32sec (100% items found)

Screenshots:

Someone hand me a drink. Alcohol. NOW.

Sat, 31 Jan 2004 07:55:48 GMT

I am sorry to all you of wrapped up in this, especially you, Will. This all started because of an asshole comment I said to Orry about Chris being a nice person. I don't know what happened, I guess. It's definitely NOT my fucking point in saying, Orry seems to be fine with it, Will's fine, everyone's cool. Sorry again, guys.

Sat, 31 Jan 2004 05:53:24 GMT

Why now.
Why fucking now.
Everything can just all go suddenly so wrong at the drop of a hat.
Chris, get back online pleeeeeease :(

::Cries::

Thu, 29 Jan 2004 00:24:34 GMT

Damn it, upper respiratory infection sucks.
It fucking feels like strep throat.
I'm going to go lay down - Arggh, it hurts! @_@

Someone's going to have a par-tah!

Sat, 24 Jan 2004 05:04:08 GMT

(If you haven't heard of Dance Dance Revolution, this journal entry MAY confuse you.)

I've been DDRing myself tired on Konamix for the past week, I've actually lost almost 9 pounds in 5 days without changing my diet (had wendy's a while ago, already burned it all off.) I figured, since so many people I know (not necessarily any readers of my journal) that live in Fort Myers have to drive a long way just to plop 20 bucks in for DDR arcade machines, that I'd just hold my own party\DDR tournament!! I'm going to try and get a copy of DDRMAX 2 for PS2 and have some buddies bring over some REAL metal pads.

Now, I am not sure I'll hold this party - it's only if i can get at LEAST 18 people in the DDR tournament, and I need at least one more pad, but metals would be appreciated. If I do hold it, everyone is invited whether they enter the tournaments or not. Of course, we'll still be playing casual non-tournament DDR so if you're new to it you can give it a go.
If I hold the tournament, here are the categories:

DDR Extreme Attack Category

Style: Perfect Attack
Difficulty Levels: All, points lowered on Light.
Games Allowed: DDR Konamix, DDRMAX*, DDRMAX2*

DDR Beginners' Category

Style: Score Attack
Difficulty Levels: Light\Basic Only.
Games Allowed: DDR Konamix, DDRMAX*, DDRMAX2*

* If I can get the game.

Post here if you want to come, and if you want to be in the tournament or not.
Thanks everyone! Hope I can pull this off >.< If not, I'll be telling you in a future post.

P.S: Boo.

HOLY CRAP

Thu, 22 Jan 2004 07:03:14 GMT

I JUST GOT IN A BAND!
A BAAAAAAAAAAND!
I'M THE LEAD VOCALIST.

This is freakin' awesome. The guys are like 10 years older than me, ha ha.... But it's still a band. Hell yes. Heeeeeellllll yes.

I hope you all come and see me when we do a gig.
Our first should be.... kinda soon, I can't give an exact date though.

WHOO HOO!

You are red. You are impure, but noble. You are precious and true to yourself and others. When you love, you love entirely, and will do anything to make your love happy. You are sure of your identity, therefore, you cannot change others or be changed. You are a true prince, you may be forgotten, but without you, none of us could go on.

What inner color are you?

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I JUST GOT IN A BAND!
A BAAAAAAAAAAND!
I'M THE LEAD VOCALIST.

This is freakin' awesome. The guys are like 10 years older than me, ha ha.... But it's still a band. Hell yes. Heeeeeellllll yes.

I hope you all come and see me when we do a gig.
Our first should be.... kinda soon, I can't give an exact date though.

WHOO HOO!

<A HREF= " http://quizilla.com/users/Shirono/quizzes/The%20inner%20color%20quiz%20(Utena%20Images)" > <IMG SRC="http://homepage.mac.com/werkers/colorquiz/youarered.jpg"> You are red. You are impure, but noble. You are precious and true to yourself and others. When you love, you love entirely, and will do anything to make your love happy. You are sure of your identity, therefore, you cannot change others or be changed. You are a true prince, you may be forgotten, but without you, none of us could go on. What inner color are you? </A> 

My DDR w00t scores!
I'm now playing DDR Konamix on my PS2 with a shitty cloth pad so expect less  from my scores. I'm converting the scores to SMMAX style so instead of me using C, B, A, S i'm using E, D, C, B, A, AA, AAA. Adios!

Think Ya Better D - AA (A) - Basic
B4U - AAA (S) Basic
B4U - A (B) Trick

Tue, 20 Jan 2004 17:10:57 GMT

::Laughs his ass off:: This is the dumbest thing EVER.
I'm Eddie Murphy. Hah!

Fayesbounty in Operation: Thirst Strike

In this compelling kill-fest, fayesbounty (Eddie Murphy) is a convicted FBI agent with a three movie deal. He needs to track down labnumbersix (John Cusack) before crime kingpin, elfgirlniko (Jane Seymour), employs him. Following a chain of very obvious clues, he makes his presence known at the haunted submarine. It really needs to be seen to be watched.

Produced by ianiceboy

And check this shit out!!!! This is hilarious! If you're a fan of Rogue or Angband you'll understand this completely.

Hahaha.... Stole this from Calso

Mon, 19 Jan 2004 06:16:56 GMT

I'll make a free icon (if you want one, I can't guarantee itll be good either) to whoever tells me the name of the band to whom the lyrics belong AND the name of each song of where the lyrics come from.

P.S: First one is.... really easy if you know the band. ;)

[pick a band and answer questions using their song LYRICS]

1. Are you male or female? A boy's best friend is his mother or whatever has become his pet
2. Describe yourself: So many thoughts inside my head, a strange collector.
3. How do people feel about you: I'm walking through the door but they're expecting more
4. How do you feel about yourself? Have a doctor come and visit us and tell us which one is sane
5. Describe your girlfriend/boyfriend/interest:  Every breath that is in your lungs is a tiny little gift to me
6. Where would you rather be?  I been thinking of a little place down by the lake
7. Describe what you want to be: What a season to be beautiful without a reason
8. Describe how you live:   I wish this house felt like a home
9. Describe how you love: My left brain knows that all love is fleeting
10. Share a few words of wisdom: Everyone who's in the know says that's exactly how it goes, and if there's anything good about me, I'm the only one who knows.

Funniest man alive.

Sat, 17 Jan 2004 10:29:59 GMT

calso. He has more wit in the smallest, most minute part of his left ear than I have in my entire body. Just check out his journal. You'll laugh! You'll cry! You'll probably expel something from your nose in the process! Are you still reading this? Go read his journal. Make haste!

P.S: This is for you, Calso. A little touch-up from your old one.

Fri, 16 Jan 2004 21:51:51 GMT

Yay!
Hyper!
Good day today!
Fridays are nice, Katie isn't mad at me, I'm hopeful for the future for once!
I lurve you all!

From now on since I play DDR.... a LOT, I'll be posting daily w00t scores XD.

Starting now.

Daily DDR w00t Scores!
AAA - Dynamite Rave - Heavy
AAA - Unite! - Heavy
AA - Fever - Oni

My god...

Mon, 05 Jan 2004 06:25:59 GMT

I've just had an insight on myself.
Katie, I think this is for you especially.

To anyone who would ever have a relationship with me, friend or more, just stop. I have realized that I am a hurtful person. I will hurt you and make you feel bad and you don't deserve whatever I will do to you. I don't do it intentionally, it's just that I'm so melancholy all the time all I can think about is how bad the next day will be, and people seem to think that they are the cause of this.

Katie, I think you should just give up on me. I have already caused you so much pain that I think that anything I could try to do to rectify it would be in vain. Take tonight for instance. I'm sorry, and I think you're one of the greatest and most uplifting people I've ever met, but you're far, far too good for me.

If I am on AIM at any time (this is to everyone) just kind of forget about IMing me because it'll only be to do work for the people I have to do work for. I don't really feel like talking to anyone.

Mon, 05 Jan 2004 04:37:27 GMT

I'm not going to be on AIM that much anymore.

It seems everytime I talk to someone things get more and more... awkward until I find myself questioning and asking myself if I did anything wrong - it's not you, it's me, I'm a little fucked up in the head. So... I'm going to take a break from AIM.

If you need me badly enough, which I don't think you do, just email me or post here or something.

Surveyness.

Fri, 02 Jan 2004 07:23:30 GMT

Got this from aliengeisha.

01. name: mike
02. single or taken: single and looking.
03. sex: male
04. bday: 7\14\88
05. sign: cancer.
06. siblings: sister, Jenna, 4yo
07. hair colour: dark brown
08. eye colour: green(day), blue(night)
09. shoe size: 12
10. height: dunno.....lol

r e l a t i o n s h i p s
01. who are your best friends? kyle, kt, alex, chris, orrah, christina, pat, greg, kelso, evie, and a whole lot more...
02. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? No.
03. did you send this to your crush? No.
04. did your crush send this to you? And... no again.

f a s h i o n | s t u f f
01. where is your favorite place to shop? I don't have a favorite place... If I see something I like in a store and I have the money, I buy it. 'Nuff said.
02. any tattoos or piercings? None.

s p e c i f i c s
01. do you do drugs? No.
02. what kind of shampoo do you use? My mom's stuff.
03. what are you most scared of? Being totally alone.
04. what are you listening to right now? The Vines - Get Free
05. who is the last person that called you? Kt
06. where do you want to get married? If I do get married.... Well, I'll think about that when the time (and if the time) comes
07. how many buddies are online right now? eighteen
08. what would you change about yourself? My outlook on life in general.. o_o

f a v o u r i t e s
01. colour: black and white
02. food: beef ramen, most anything Italian or Japanese
03. boys' names: Haydn, Asher
04. girls' names: Rose, Sophie, Marah
05. subjects in school: English, History
06. animals: Cats.
07. sports: Football, soccer, DDR (Yes. DDR. It is a sport to me.)

h a v e | y o u | e v e r
01. given anyone a bath? no....?
02. smoked? no.
03. bungee jumped? no again.
04. made yourself throw up? and again with the no.
05. skinny dipped? erm... no.
06: ever been in love? yes.
07. made yourself cry to get out of trouble? nope.
08. pictured your crush naked? well, which crush? not... for a while, lol
09. actually seen your crush naked? no.
10. cried when someone died? yes, of course.
11. lied: No!......yeah
12. fallen for your best friend? no.
13. been rejected? yes. Haven't we all?
14. rejected someone? no. Well.... maybe.
15. used someone? no
16. done something you regret? yes, but not in a while.

c u r r e n t
clothes: black shorts, shirt.
make-up: erm.....none...
annoyance: slashed myself in the leg yesterday. still hurts like a bitch today.
smell: nothing.
favourite artist: Yoko Kanno
favourite group: The White Stripes OR The Mars Volta
desktop picture: "Altimit OS"
book you're reading: 'The Fountainhead'
cd in player: my 'The Mars Volta - Deloused in the Comatorium'
dvd in player: 'Princess Mononoke'
colour of toenails: not.. colored.

l a s t | p e r s o n
you touched: lol, dunno
hugged: kt
you imed: evie (EVAH)
you yelled at: pat
you kissed: no one in a long time

a r e | y o u
understanding: yes
open-minded: yes
arrogant: no
insecure: somewhat
interesting: I can be
random: Once again, can be
hungry: GOD no.
smart: I've been told. But... I amaze myself with my stupidity sometimes.
moody: When I have reason to be.
hardworking: nowadays....yeah
organized: insanely
shy: nope
difficult: very much no.
attractive: not at all.
bored easily: Bored enough to write this damn thing.
messy: no.
responsible: yes.
obsessed: about?
angry: can be.
sad: extremely.
happy: no.
hyper: nope.
trusting: extremely.
talkative: when there's something to talk about.
legal: If you call downing Smirnoff like it was air last night.... then sure. (Nah, wasn't bad, didnt even get too drunk -- just drank it real fast, is all)

w h o | d o | y o u | w a n n a
kill: a LOT of people.
slap: 99% of my family.
get really wasted with: alex? lol
get high with: i COULD get high with anyone... if I wanted to
look like: Dunno.
talk to online: Kyle, Chris, Orrah, or Christina
talk to offline: It's 2am.... No one.

r a n d o m
in the morning i am: still tired
all i need is: a pillow right about now......zzzzZZZ...
love is: fantastic but impossible.
i dream about: nothing but freakishly horrible nightmares.

o p p o s i t e | s e x
what do you notice first: hair, posture
last person you slow danced with: don't remember.
worst question to ask: who are you again?
who do you have a crush on: if I have one, she'll know. And does.
who has a crush on you: No one.

d o | y o u | e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: nope
save conversations: oh yeah.
wish you were a member of the opposite sex: ermm... not really?
wish you were younger: Hell no.
cry because someone said something to you: i did once....

y o u r | t h o u g h t s
i know: too much of the desolation of society
i want: to wake up and stay awake for another hour.
i have: a plate on my desk. Should go put it in the sink. Lol.
i wish: that human beings could work together as a whole.
i fear: being totally alone.
i hear: The Vines. Yay for them.
i wonder: how bored I must be in taking this survey
i regret: a lot of things
i love: an old school friend from my past

f i n a l | q u e s t i o n s
01. do you like filling these out: not one bit.
02. how many people are you sending this to: no one, it's on my LJ.
03. who will send it back: nobody.
04. least likely to send it back: Tie. Everyone who reads it.
05. gold or silver: silver
06. what was the last film you saw at the movies: Return of the King (w00t)
07. favourite cartoon/anime: Cowboy Bebop.
08. what did you have for breakfast this morning: if by morning you mean 3PM, well, I had chicken wings X_X
09. who would you love being locked in a room with: ??
10. could you live without your computer: My only gateway to my friends.... No, I don't think I could.
11. would you colour your hair: Maybe.
12. could you ever get off the computer: Oh, here, watch.... What the... Shit! Get off me, damn keyboard.. Wait, that's my spl.....
13. habla espanol: si.
14. how many people are on your buddy list: 116. cha-ching.
15. drink alcohol: casually. Never get drunk though.
16. like watching sunrises or sunsets: don't really care.
17. what hurts the most: the heartbreak of a person you love who you know will always be too good for you

Ask yourself, ask your mom, ask DNA.....

Mon, 29 Dec 2003 18:20:01 GMT

(Just had to because I love these damn lyrics.)

....Gummed up, brain dead and can't decide
You can't pray enough, you can't hide
You can be cool or you can cry
Do it wrong, not at all, or do it right

No one owes you, no one's to blame
Save for bad genes or DNA
Ask your conscience the why and how
Do it then, do it when but do it now....

Fri, 26 Dec 2003 18:34:00 GMT

Yay! For once in a while, I'm actually pretty happy!

Going to a kickass party on new year's, about to go to the mall and I have *TONS* of cash, it's going to be a great day! ^_^
And more, because Katie's coming down and I get to hang out with her :)

(P.S: Katie, I have no idea what to get you for X-mas, lol. I'll need to call you or talk to you online before we hang out because I don't want to get you something stupid, lol. Ciao!)

So... Yay!

Merry Christmas to all.

Thu, 25 Dec 2003 13:19:43 GMT

Hrmm... I really do need to start enjoying things more.

Merry Christmas, everybody.

I'm so melancholy. I want to see a bunch of people really bad. I want to hang out with Kyle, Christina, Alex.... Well, everyone.

Last night at my christmas party, I found out that my relatives can really go to far. I was about to bitch-slap my aunt (not the cool one, another one who is insane) Right in front of everyone. Long story.... So, that kicked off a somewhat dreary X-mas eve.

Then I couldn't sleep because of my scary-as-all-hell dreams that won't stop.... I don't know why, and I normally know how to control my dreams. I just can't stop these.. They've been going on constantly for about a month now.

Presents-wise, I really liked Christmas ^_^ I got a sweet new entertainment center, DVD player, and the following DVDs: Princess Mononoke, Cowboy Bebop: Knockin' on Heaven's Door, Two Towers Extended, and Requiem for a Dream. I also got De-Loused in the Comatorium by The Mars Volta from my dad. Thanks to Kyle for that thought 'cuz they're like my new favorite band :D

But, I think Christmas reminds me how much I don't... really like holidays that much. Maybe it's just me though, you know me... morbid. But I guess I can't complain because I got a TON of goodies ;)

Ciao!

Mon, 22 Dec 2003 04:11:41 GMT

Why do people have to hurt and cry..
Why do they have to fuck their lives up in every manageable way?
Can't humans work as a whole to accomplish anything?
I hate life right now.... I feel like I have nothing but I have everything I need.
I just feel like I can't effect anyone's life for the better now, and nothing goes the way it's planned.
I'm not talking to all the people I want to... I don't know if they want to talk to me either.
Hurt and loss are the only residents of my mind now.
I feel pain constantly. I feel everyone's pain, and I no panacea, no cure-all to remedy these scars.

I am so lost in life.

w00t!

Sun, 21 Dec 2003 08:07:37 GMT

Thanks to KulishIcons for these icons I'm using on my LJ now!

Check her cool icons like this out at animeicons

My favorite person ever...

Tue, 16 Dec 2003 03:16:22 GMT

<3 bionic_angel <3

Chris, thank you for being such an amazing person. A thousand thank-yous would not be enough. You're the nicest person anyone could ever ask for. I hope your life is wonderful in every way, because you have made mine that much better. Thank you so much. I can't express how much you mean to me right now. I'd do anything for ya, just ask it.

Much thanks and sincerity, Mike